Well I finally got laid.........

The month of April and the beginning of May was very good to me in the bedroom. My first hook up was with (J). Cute little latino that I met on biggercity. He would only call or email me, he would never give me his number. So after about 3 weeks of back and forth he finally made a commitment. We were going to hook up where I was housesitting on a Sunday night at 8pm. All that I knew about him was that he was about 5'6" tall, 165#'s and latino. He knew all about me from my profile on biggercity. So at 8:40pm he finally shows up, and I am impressed. He is cute and very horny. He kisses me deep right away. Standing in the entrance hall, tongue down my throat. Very nice. We shed clothes on the way to the bedroom. Right away he is down on my cock, sucking like a champ. Me make out somemore, kissing, licking, sucking, kissing. It was hot. Now he has me on my back, he is between my legs and his cock about 8" and thick is as hard as a rock at my asshole. Now I usually do not bottom unless the guy is hot, way hot. Well this guy just wanted it bad. So I roll over and he is on me in an instant. He is moving his cock all around and finally it hits home. And man did it hurt. He only got about 3" in before I was telling him to back off. I am super tight, and he is really big. Well it just makes him hornier when I tell him it is too big and to slow down. He does and all is good. He rides my ass for about 10 minutes and all I can do is grunt and hope he is a quick cummer. Which thank god he is. He cums in my ass and just lays on top of me. It was way hot, and he was so good. He tells me in my ear that I am going to get him in trouble. So I ask him who is waiting for him at home and he says his girlfriend. I figured as much. He goes back down on me and I cum in his mouth. Way hot again. He gets up and dressed a goes. Haven't heard from him since. I have a feeling he enjoyed it way too much and doesn't want to admit to it. Thats fine, but I would have liked to have kept him as a fuck buddy, but oh well.

Next conquest took place with my regular suck buddy. I have hooked up a lot in the past year but never like this. Usually he will come over when I have about an hour to kill. I will lay down on my bed with my pants and underwear off. He will come in, stay clothed and just suck my cock and lick my balls. Nothing more nothing less. He does this till I cum in his mouth. It is usually a huge load because he is so good at what he does. Like I said we have been doing this for about a year and i have never seen him nude. Well one Friday night in early May he texts me. Its about 10pm and he is horny and a little drunk. He wants me to come to his place and chat a little and maybe make out. I say cool, get his address and jump in the shower. I am there about 11pm. He answers the door and I can tell that he is a little tipsy. But thats cool. We sit on his bed and he starts talking, about anything and everything. Finally he says do something to shut me up. So of course I reach over and kiss him hard. Now remember I have never seen him nude. He turns off the light and it is pitch black, but I know all the body parts that I want. We both strip down and he is on my cock like nothing else. He gives the most amazing blow jobs. When he blows me I can last about 45 minutes and thats it. So anyway, we are going at it, back and forth, him sucking me, me sucking him and so on and so forth. I so want to fuck him but he is not giving me any indication that he wants to be fucked. So we makeout and 69 and all that good stuff. As I am sucking him he keeps pulling his cock out of my mouth and telling me he is about to cum. Well I am no stranger to having guys cum in my mouth so I dont know what the deal is. Then he turns around and just sucks me till I cum. He gets back in bed and we lay there for awhile and I completly forget that he hasnt cum yet. He says dont worry about, he is there just to please me. Now is that a hot fuck buddy or what. I know there will be of those nights to cum. HOT.

Now this next guy, is not someone that I am really atracted too but he does have an ass and I like to fuck it. So nothing really special here, I just kind of use him. He cums in sucks my dick hard, I turn him around and bend him over and fuck the shit out of him and cum in his ass. The first time I did this he was very surprise about bareback fucking. He had never done it. I know its a taboo subject for most, but I love it. And he liked it too. But now I bb and he doesnt even blink an eye.

Thats all for now, I am off to Maui for 10 days, so hopfully I will have some more sexcapades to share when I get back.

Up and running.......

Started my new job yesterday, and it is fantastic. Having a great time. I will post more later, expecially since I got some on Sunday. I will tell all about .

Another weekend gone..........

Well another weekend down. Man they go fast. Back at work on yet another soggy Monday morning, I hate my job. Did not want to get out of bed today. Woke up at my usual 5:30am and laid in bed just listening to the rain. Thought about how much I wanted to call in sick. But calling in sick with my boss is just something that you don't do. He lays on so much quilt it is unbelievable. Even though I never call in sick.

Had another homoimprovment weekend, per usual. Did a little work at my mom and dads. Installed a window in the laundry room. I replaced the last original window from the '50's. So now all windows are double paned. Now we just to replace the interior doors and extensivly remodel the kitchen and the house won't be that bad! Since I will most likely get this house down the road, I am trying to make it as close to what I want as possible without making it look that way.

Talked with boy that I lost out on because of an email sanfu. Had a good chat with him last, hopfully things will continue to progess. I do like him, and think that we fit very well together.

On another note, going to Vegas this weekend. Looking very foward to that. My sister and her husband are meeting some friends down there, so I decided to tag along. Should be a very good time. We all turned thirty over the last year and are kind of celebrating that. But really who needs an excuse to go to Vegas? I sure as shit don't. I have my own room there for the first time ever, so hopefully I can find one or two chasers in town for a little fun. Gotta love the chasers.

Last night I was sitting on my roommates bed, he was at his computer playing like 8 games of poker. All I could do was stare at his crotch and how much I just wanted to lean over and unzip his pants, take out his cock and just go to town. But I restrained myself. He is str8 and I have known him since he was 5. But he is so cute, great little bubble butt. Would love to sink my tongue in there. But alas no, don't want to ruin a great friendship.

Ok thats if for now, I need to get back to work.

Feeling great

Reguarding the interview from a few days ago. It went great, really hit it off with the person that I will report to. I have one more interview to go sometime next week. From what I hear, it he should like me no problem. I kind of have an inside track on this new job. Aren't good friends wonderful?

Anyway off to the Giant's/A's game to night at PacBell/SBC/AT&T park. I love this park and I love Giant's baseball, Barry Bonds and all. My sister went with someone else and bought season tickets this year. So I will have plenty of games to chose from between her and my uncles two sets. Now I just need to find some nice guys to take with me!

Oh so now I have been told by two different people that I am the straightest gay guy that they know. I guess this is ok, I really don't know. Any thoughts? I know that I am very str8 acting and that is how I stayed in the closet for so long., but there has to be somethings about me that are a dead giveaway. But I guess if you don't know my interests then you really wouldn't know that I am a HUGE Celine Dion fan. HUGE. HUGE. My friends used to always give me shit about that and I would just brush them off. So I guess you really wouldn't know. Ok thats it for today, I hope that I can get the blog a little steamer for you guys, but since I am going through a little bit of a dry spell right now, you just get me. Maybe next week, I will get my sex life back! Who knows.

Interview

Job interview today, yeah me. Wish me luck.

Crying

I so feel like crying right now, except that I can't. I am at work, sitting at my desk.

I had been seeing a guy, although just a couple of times, we hit it off big time. Then out of the blue he shoots me an email saying that he thought our cultures were too different. I told him that I disagreed and thought we should work it out. We then passed a couple of emails back and forth, nothing too major. My last email he did not get, got hung up in cyberspace. Anyway today about 2 weeks after the fact, my server here at work sent the email back saying it was undeliverable. I forward it on to him again. He emailed back stating that he thought I was pissed off at him and not wanting to talk anymore. I told him no way was that true, I had been thinking about him for the past two weeks and was wondering why he never responded back to me. So to make a long story short, neither one of us was angry at the other, just a cyberspace fuck up. So we chatted today for a little while. Then he says that since he didn't here from me for a week, he figured it was over and he went on a couple of dates. One of those dates has turned in to a little bit more. But he would still like to be friends with me. Whiich is great, but god, I wanted it to be so much more.

This is me take it or leave it! 

Homo Improvement

I guess I should explain my title a little. I am a huge do-it-yourselfer. HUGE. Everything I think that I can do and even somethings that I can't, I do anyways. My house (townhouse) is always in constant change. I have to have a little or big project going, or else I am just not happy.

Today for example, I was at my parents house, they still live in the house that I grew up in, the house that my mother grew up in for that matter. I was cleaning out the garage when my sights went else where. The door to the garage was falling apart and old. So off to HD I go and $156 latter, I had a new door and hardware. 2 hours later there was a new door installed, and a very satisfied gay guy. I should have taken before and after photos, but I am still new at this blog thing, and well learning.

So now I am off to my sisters and brother in laws to fix their toilet. Its a never ending battle.

Work..................Sucks big fat juicy cock

I work for a company that requires a 50 hour work week. Yes I work 5, 10 hour days Monday thru Friday, 6:30 to 5:00. Needless to say, this does nothing for my social life, or anything in my life for that matter.

(On a side note, I was telling my sister that a friend called on a Monday night at 9pm and said they were in the Castro and I should come up. I said are yo crazy its a work night. My sister replied, "I think this what we are supposed to be doing at this stage of our lives." Thats nuts.)

I have been trying to lose weight, but when you work that many hours, you really don't feel like doing anything when you get home. Now I know I have no drive, zero will power, but thats besides the point. I am in the process of looking for and interviewing for a new job. Monday thru Friday 7-4. A real job. A job that I know I will be great at. But it's also a job that most likely will not pay me what I am making now. Now I don't swim in cash. I have a very hard time making it here. After all it is the bay area where housing cost are through the roof. I do own my own (well 1/2) townhouse. But between mortgage payments, car payments, and all else, I struggle and struggle big time. Lucky for me, I have a sister, with whom I share the townhouse, that makes double what I do. So she does somewhat support me. But anyway, I want this new job for a couple of reasons.

1. More spare time. To do my home improvent stuff.

2. More time to concentrate on my weight loss. After tipping the scales at a whopping 377 after the new year, and nearly fainting, I decided to set up goals for myself.

3. To feel better about myself. I really don't care about the money. I can do side jobs to make up the difference. I just want to be happy. To want to go to work. Not drag my fat ass out of bed at 5:30 every morning to come home at 5:30 every night and just flop on the bed and get on line.

4. To be able to keep up with my cute nephews, they are 4 and 2 and getting to the fun stage.

Although I am fat, I am healthy. On more then one occasion I have been told by those in the medical profession that I am the healthiest fat person they have ever examined. Now this is good, but also bad. Good because I am not a health risk right now. Who knows in 5 years or so. Bad because I can't get any realy help. I want a gastric bypass but don't qualify because I have no health issues associated with obesity. That really pisses me off!

So anyway, back to this job. I have been with this company for 6.5 years. I am fully vested. But still ready to move on. The last guy that I was seeing, albeit for a very short period, questioned wether it was good decision to leave my job at this stage of my life. He figured it would be better to stay miserable in my job then look for another one. I am in my very early thirties. I have atleast 30 more years of work ahead of me. I am NOT going to subject myself to misery just because I am vested, NO WAY NO HOW, not me. I just can't take doing the same thing over and over again. I need variety. Maybe thats why I like being single so much. Feh oh well.

A little about me............

Well here it is, never thought I would be doing a blog. Don't really know where I am going to go with this so, if I peaked your interest at all, bear with me. This will be a blog about me trying to figure who I am still, and trying to find the muscle guy that I know is in me.

I am a 30ish gay native Californian male. Still living it up in the sunshine, can't beat this place! I am, I guess, newly out (less then a year). Went much better then expected but we will get into that eventually. High school graduate, some college. Working for the largest plumbing wholesaler in the country. I know very exciting. In the gay community I am considered a bear. Big guy, not too hairy, but enough. I am currently single, which I seem to prefer.

Growing up in a typical american family. Two sisters, mom, dad, grandparents 2 miles away. Very close knit family. Sometimes too close. 3 very good friends and a lot of aquaintances. Grew up in the home my mother grew up in. Don't want to go into too much dealtail, if I do I won't have anything else to write about!

Look for more posts, I hope.